Could This Be A Sign?

I'm so worried. Damien didn't show up at classes today and I lost one of my most prized posessions. It was just a decorative cosplay cross that is pretty much worthless but it's of great sentimental value to me. It was given to me by my childhood friend for my dedication to those that are important to me. She said that it would bring me luck and light in the dark of despair. And it has served that purpose for awhile now.
Today not only did I not see my loved one, I lost that very cross which has kept me through the times. Could it be a sign that I'm not meant to be with him? I'm not a very superstitious person but this has me quite concerned.

Just Slightly Depressed

Damien isn't here today and I'm a little depressed over it. I guess that I love him more than even I knew. I wonder if he dropped the class or if he's just sick/skipping. Either way, it's not helping my mood. Especially since his last e-mail from yesterday. "Who knows? So far you seem like a pretty cool person so I hope for the best." 
Is that good or bad? He was also playing with my dragon and phoenix bracelet and argued with me playfully when I "stole" the idea from his head in AP English. Damien even went as far to walk me to the stairs and tell me more about himself. Are we meant to be or is this a one-sided love?

Motivation At Last

I've finally decided to create a blog despite having the account for a while. Please keep in mind that this is my personal blog and I will be posting some personal things on it. I post things that are on my mind and things I just feel like posting. There will be times where the language is less than...appropriate. But it will stay to a minimum, seeing as how I'm striving to improve my ability in roleplaying the lovely Sebastian! I am one hell of a butler after all~