Friday, September 16, 2011

Awkward Is Awkward

Honestly, it is. I'm pretty damn certain Damien knows I don't just have a "crush" on him but that I'm completely in love with him. But I bet he'll never feel that way about me. Now I can't decide if I should confront him or avoid him... But he understands me better than everyone else and I just don't think he's such a bad guy. A lot of people thinks that he's a fucked up, condescending jerk but in some ways, so am I. He doesn't question the scars on my wrist and he doesn't judge me as much as he think he does. I feel so reassured when he's just there, even if he's not talking to me. He becomes sad when I get suicidal thoughts and supposedly "happy" when I'm doing something stupid that he finds interesting.
My clairenpathy and precognition only go so far. There's just something about him that feel different from others. I just don't know around him.
His words in the last email he sent me for the day is kind of eerie... "Those who show the most saddness seem to be those who care the most."

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